TTC: Post #2

I have not felt like myself lately.  I am so moody, I can hardly stand myself (God bless my husband & son's heart for dealing with me). I have felt bloated. I have felt a little crampy. I have to pee all the time. I find myself gaging at certain smells.  My gums bled today. I ate a peanut butter and pickle sandwich as my night snack for the past week (weird!) I've not had my period (but well it's been MIA for about 2 months). My boobs are a little bit tender. I have so much (COVER YOUR EYES IF YOU DON'T LIKE GROSS THINGS!!) discharge. I have had alot of headaches.  I've not really felt sick though (besides the dislike of certain smells, like popcorn).  I took a pregnancy test last week & it was negative.  I am hoping that I just took it too early.  I have plans to take another one in the morning, if I can work up enough courage.  I am extremely nervous. I do not want to see another negative.  I have had an extremely hard day today dealing with my emotions.  I got another bad dental check-up...more teeth to pull & more cavities to fill & more money to pay b/c my insurance sucks.  Can you believe I cried because of that? I did.  And as if that wasn't enough, my mom called me as soon as I got out of the dentist to tell me that my Grandma was in the hospital, and they were concerned that she has had another stroke. I am praying this pregnancy test gives me the results I want to see, and that if I am pregnant that everything goes well.  I know I am jumping the gun, because most of these symptoms could just mean my period is coming. I am also jumping the gun because I am planning a special way to tell everyone we are expecting (once we are in the clear of course).  Last time I found out I was pregnant I told everyone (well close family) that day.  However, this time I want to wait until I am absolutely certain and I am out of the danger zone.  It's going to be hard to keep a secret though, since we've been wanting this for so long now.  I honestly have the urge to go take a test right now, but I know it would not be as accurate because morning pee is better, and I am not sure when I actually concieved (if I did).  So fingers crossed & prayers being said.  I want to see two lines so bad!